Happy New Year! 09 !!!!!!!!
 Obama 08!

cheers to a new year! :D
my christmas break this past year was great, I didn't get the ninendo wii like i wanted but I got a few sweet asss things from the fam. everyone is loved <3 my babys scar is just about done healing and ahh how i just cant wait for that to be over, its the most craziest thing to do, the responsibility to take care of this nasty ball scar, anyway... I just recenlty moved to a new apt. Rockridge apts, i might get a roommie later but who knows, not anytime soon im sure,  I love it! i love it, my boucanny is sweet, its this tiny little piece of slab lol levetatin in mid air, where Buddy has no escape! he loves it though, I don't think he realizes how high above he is because he keeps staring at the ground as if he were thinking " maybe if i can fit my head through these bars then my body would surely fit too, and I can take a small leap to the floor" haha, or not.... he trips out on the big, bushy tree, the little birds are constanly flying back and fourth to the fence from it. What i love about it so much is that it faces this nice little section of big and beautiful palm trees from the palms apts lol, god that place is so nasty looking but I can hardly notice it whhen i gaze into those palms... Ahh well I'm also excited for a new semester, always a new semester to grow better and better at my studies, I fucking hate math though, I still havent taking college algebra, I'm saving that one for last :P

so on another note: one of my great uncles past away recently, Decmeber 26. 2008, Ernesto Castaneda, a great, great, sweet man! When i was at the wake and other family members which i had no idea he had were saying things about him, I just wanted to go up and do the same but I waas nervous and definitely not ready to speak, I should have written something, but that's why I'm mentionning it here. Everytime I saw him he was always willing to help me out in one way or another, always there for the family, so uncle Neto, rest in peace. :D (you'll always be remembered)

spent new years with the family, Mathew and Corina stayed over, totally different, I never had spent  New Year with my grandparents before at around my age group, it was pretty cool, chill, we all had deliciously tasting hamburgers, drank a few bottles of champaign, and popped fireworks!  neighbors were popping them everywhere and it ws a little drizzly outside, ahh so this winter season has beeen pretty nice so far, the weather is great! i dont think ive had a single nasty day yet,  i hope it continues to be awesome and I pray I better pass all my classes! ha. 

Kiki gave birth to four of the most beautiful Kittens anyone will ever see :)

Merry Christmas!!

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A Special Christmas Video
from me and Mathew!

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The other day going to school, the place was so dark and morbid. It felt as if the school had been aged and abandoned for years.Leaky ceilings and some mold here and there the building had obviously gone through some harsh damages. Going to my next class I run into an old friend of mine and offers me 70 bucks worth of cocaine. I felt that was an offer that couldn't be turned down so I accepted and I left
straight to the restroom to try it out. After taking a couple bumps off an old key that I had put away in my pocket I left to look for my next class.
As soon as I walked in I noticed that Raymond was there. I proceeded to pick my spot and sat down patiently as I waited for my professor to
come in. While I was waiting I made myself comfortable and started talk to chat it up with Raymond. We talked about school, and what we
plan on studying and all the sorts. While we were talking we were rudely interrupted bye some big man in what seemed to be one of those
chemical spill proof ones. He told us that there was a major problem and that we must evacuate the building immediately. I noticed that one
our way out the principal of the school had instructed the security to strictly search every student for any clues that could lead to the cause of
our problem at school. I told the professor I HAD to go to the restroom SOOoooo Bad and I had to go now. I quickly rushed to the restroom
and went into a stall to get rid of the rest of cocaine I had left from earlier, I wanted nothing to do with it. The restroom was so dark and
musky like it hadn't been cleaned for years. As I was walking out I ran into Leslie, Mathew and my brother. We stuck together and tried to
make our way out of this building without having anything to do with what was going on. As we were walking we noticed these secret doors
to a classroom we had never ever seen before. We walked through the doors and it surprisingly led us to another door that was locked with
chains and chains from one after another. we noticed that there seemed to be that there had been some kind of monster living there, we
walked through and saw that there was this special portal on the floor that led straight into the dirt ground, and we all thought what could
that be there for? what could this giant hole in the ground have anything to do with what is going on in our school..



umm.. to be continued...

O.K.

so I'm back in Rio and its been really great so far.
crazy to say but when in my shoes its awesome.
I love living in Edinburg and with mi amor Mathew!
but ive been having an awesome time just relaxing
and keeping to myself here at Home. :)

Christmas is so close, and its been so hard to find
presents for those i love so dearly. but as the days
go by ive been slowly getting everyone a gift:)

i have a couple minutes before class so ima make this a quick one.

My weekend sucked. i went home to Rio Grand and all i did was clean house, it really bothered me.. i just wanted to bum around and enjoy my weekend of no work. It just didn't happen that way,Friday my grandparents picked me up and of course I! had to drive to donna to go get my brother.. along with having to drive all the way back to rio. which sucked... i really hate driving. not cause i suck at it cause i don't. im an awesome driver.. but im just way to lazy to drive.. it takes so much effort to keep ur foot on the pedal all the time haha and having to break n shit for stops and what not. blah. anywayss... that night i went out to Albert's Going AWay PARTY it was pretty fun i guess people dancing to ghetto music.. but not like thats new. psh. but i drank and toked it it was a good night. i definitely had an awesome rest that night i slept like a baby .. i didn't wanna get up haha but Saturday .. i cleaned house and whatever a bunch-a crap and i decided to go to mats house.. we were going to watch a movie but it got way too late and usually when its that late i just fall asleep in the theater and don't know a damn thing whats going on in the movie.. so me, mat and my brother stayed at the apt and drank a few beers and watched some stuff till we fell asleep. oh yeah we ordered pizza that dipping one from pizza hut its really good haha you guys should try it. but yeah we ended up sleeping over there and got in trouble for it. cause i didn't notify my grandma. blah oh well.. went to church early Sunday morning and found out my mom was going to get to come home already ! wooo im so happy for her :D and pepper sjdflksjdaf
i cant wait till my pets get spade jejejejej oh well gotta go :P

ahhh its been a good and sad week.
i had to get rid of Vivi, i got so attached to her. but mat was being a bunghole and said she was destroying his apt. bah. oh well
i really miss Kiki after all she is mah babayy.
I'm really lookin forward to this weekend. i wanna go to the beach er something haha or party.. i dunno we'll see whats up.
my classes are doing good but it's only the begging.'
i still cant believe joey is taking 6 classes. he's awesome.
dj Irene buddahhhhhh. sdflkjsdflsdafjkskdaf
lol i dunno im in the library i have a long time till class starts well about an hour
my back has been hurting alot lately .. haha groosssss
i feel like an old hag. caca.

wow ... i havent written a real entry in a while..
its sad to say for me cause mostly when i want to write something
i like to write about something good  something as a memory
that id like to come back, read it and laugh about it.. It's already Aug.
and im pretty nervous about going back to school.. yeah, I've been
going to stc n stuff but its not the same.. my parents have been
putting all this super hardcore pressure on me.. not like its unusuall
cause they always have.. but i had always ignored it and for some reason
i just cant let it go through one ear and out the other, It seems that ive
become so senemental lately .. and im most sure it cant be a bad thing
because it makes me think about things alot more... so yeah.. I'm gonna work
really hard this semester and the next. and the one after that.. my life's changing
and i really wanna get the best of things for now on..i wanna reach my goal in
becoming an art teacher and be the best art teacher i can be.. so yeah..
ill be moving into the dorms on the 24th ! ahh which im soo excited about..
i cant wait to be on my own again and do all the right things..
and to have a roommate to keep.. orrrrr to not have a roommate at all woo
if im lucky pshhhhhhh. oh well im lookin foward to a good year no matter
how nervous i am  cause with the will power i know i can win haha all cheesy
so yeah... im going on this diet lol  just a regular diet of eating the right foods.
and im pretty determined in losing some weight..  ha well see what happens there
but yeah this is enough caca  but if anyone wants to hang out anytime before school
gimme a call  orrrrrr if anyone wants to play ddr.

If you won $100 this afternoon, what would you do with it?

Id get a badass cell phone !

What are you afraid of?
im afraid of cockroaches freakin killer bees and really nasty shit. like that/

ahh for all that has a myspace or doesnt have a myspace

check out  this awesome music :D
DC/\/E


or

Digital Controlled ME

when i think about the sky... it makes me so happy. when i look at those big fluffy clouds pass by its just Ive never had a downing thought in my mind about them.. its always like.. ahhh look at that cloud ! and the shape or you know ahhh look at them pass by .. i know whoever reads this is going to think I'm dumb about clouds and what not but whatevah. im just trying to think happy thoughts.. ha.

things haven't been going all so great lately.. i mean i don't mean to come on her and bitch about my life or to try and make myself seem like i have the worst life in the world cause i know i don't Im pretty thankful for what i have I couldn't ask for more better of a family..
its just things have been a little edgy here and there lately.. things with mat and his job search have not been going so well... but you know Im gonna be there for him. I love him so much and and i just hope nothing bad ever happens between us. cause i wanna be with him forever, He's made me so happy.. i sometimes wonder where id be or what id be doing if we werent together.. like Knowing me and being stuck in rio .. i probably would have gone back to my ex and been more miserable than ever knowing that i don't care for him.. i mean care as in a relationship or any type of love.. but anyways.. i might have also been smart enough to just stick on my own.. cause those were sort of my plans anyway.. butttt yeahh thats no matter. I've deeply fallen in mad love with mathew and not to say it in some weird scary psycho way. haha but i love luff him :) mucho. my grandparents have been going a little crazy.. i mean natane was down for three weeks and i can assure you i spend more than 500 dollars.. for gas and to take her places and to go eat and you know for good times.. to remember and well im being punished for the cost of it all but it doesnt matter you know.. all i want is for my friends to have a good time.. soo theyre going to san antonio again and me and my brother are being forced to stay down once more -__-'
supposably we don't help around the house enough.. thats bull but whatever. yeah so you know i think that alot of people didn't really realize how much i did for Natane or how much ive done for mat.. or how much ive done for myself.. i mean yeah it shouldn't matter but sometimes.. its just not cool you know that people could be getting wrong thoughts about things or people.. or myself and i just hope yeah i dunno doesn't matter. oh well im starting to feel better writing this junk.. whether it wants to be read or not its no big deal..yeah so ... in other news..........................



i deleted my myspace...
ill get over it.. its dumb and nobody cares anyway.

oh oh. and i love you guys..

Joey,
Karlita, and Natane.
just to let you know.. id jump infront of a mad cat for you. :]

....
pssst.
I love my Boyfriend.

you are the MOST SPeciallist person in the whole galaxiverse!! DOn't let anyone , ANYONE get you down..you're better than that.. rise above, the sweetest air is closest to space...so rise , rise , RISE <3 I love you shooooohhh mucho. I want to drive to fall asleep with you ;)

wooo 7-11 im 19 yeahhhhhhhhhhhh!

  i havent written an entry in like forevarrrr

ahhh we went to the harry potter premier for my birthday  and well other people went just because cause no one really knew it was my birthday till i told them yeap pretty sad. its cool though whatever. it doesn't matter much to me.. i'vr had worse of a birthday.  i left like early in the movie.. yeah it sucked i had this super bad headache that just wouldnt go away. and i kept having body cramps n shit.. it really sucked... i couldnt stay much longer  lucky mats house is super close i just went home and slept  it sucked =/ thennnnnnnnnnn to wake up and i dunno to not so great of a morning.. oh! well my brother said happy birthday  and mats mom called me haha that was nice of her:]  anyways... i think today were going to buy a 6 pack or something and an ice cream cake and head to the pool :] i dunno if natane wants to come or if shes going to make her whole day bad or not just cause she cant go see josh  i dunno sucks.. theres nothing i or she can do about it..  but yeah  it seems like the day will turn out great.  it should ha.

woooooooooooooo !!

of to San Antonio we go ! :D

so last night my sleepin was ruuuuuudly interrupted last night by a phonecall from Ray @ 3 oclock in the morning!
im like wth why is this guy calling at this time.. so i called back and he had told me he found sunny on myspace...
and i was like WHAT  ogmaweddddddddddd no way.  but it sounded way worse cause i was asleep so i was like
okay okay Ray, woke myself  up, made myself a peanut butter and jelly sandwich .. lol and started searching for rays
myspace which would have sunnys myspace... i found her. ogmawedddddddd  its been forever. years  since like soph
year of higschool its unbelievable ! its so awesome she was like omgawed i havent spoken to yo in forever! call me! and
im like yay okay  i called her at 4am  X_x we stayed on the phone till 5 then hung up cause i was pretty tired. yeah so we cought
up with eachother. man she lives a crazy life.   its cool im excited for her she does whateva she wants has her own house and everythinggggggg lucky.